Crying as I read My Own Post
ByI have not written any thing on this blog since January 8th 2009. As I read some of posts, especially the one on December 21, 2008 where I mention my dear Mother and caring for her, I cry. My Mother is gone now and I no longer have to be her caregiver.
Everything I wrote back then or thought back then or felt back then seem like lifetimes ago. Now that she is gone, I would love to be able to know what I know now and be her caregiver again.
I would taken better care of myself by hiring someone and therefore would have been less stressed and therefore more patient and more loving in those very stressful times. But I have to tell you that in the end, THE ONLY THING THAT WAS LEFT AND THAT MATTERED WAS THE LOVE WE HAD FOR EACH OTHER.
I had no idea…I truly had no idea how very much I loved her. I knew I loved her but nothing could have prepared me for the surprise of the love that came to feel for this sweet precious lady…My Beloved Mother.
I have written some poetry when I will post in the next days. It is 1 A.M. here and I can not believe I am writing this late and posting on my blog again.
